Sunday, November 1, 2009
My first D/s encounter
My first D/s encounter was with my Master. When we first met I knew he was the alpha male. I wasn’t sure what that meant but I knew he could control me and make me do things for him I wouldn’t do for any man (ie: give up my independence,do sexual things I would never do with anyone else,do everything in my power to make him happy). I had been divorced for 21 yrs before I met Him and wanted to get married again. I didn’t know at the time it was going to end up as a D/s relationship but I knew he had a mental control over me that I had never experienced before. The actual sexual D/s relationship didn’t occur until after 6 1/2 yrs of marriage,but the mental D/s relationship occured from the beginning.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
These are a few of my favorite things
My Master,my children and grandchildren,bdsm,sex,my pets,friends,thunder storms,snow,running,bicycling,reading,traveling,laying in bed all day and having sex, spring,fall,scuba diving,movies,cuddling and kissing and giggling,hiking,camping,star gazing,theater and opera.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Define Service
My definition of service is to give of myself to help someone meet their needs and wants. Even if I’m tired and don’t want to do it. Even if I don’t care for them that much and my Master wants me to do it anyway. Service is being there for my Master and giving my heart,soul,control,love,body and being to him.
Services I provide that I enjoy are sexual,bringing things to my Master and caring for him. I love baking for him,giving him a massage and a bath. Kneeling beside him. Dressing for him. Services I don’t enjoy are being quiet and still.
An article that correlates with my beliefs are ‘Structure with Rules’ and ‘Why the Word Training Confuses Novices’.
Services I provide that I enjoy are sexual,bringing things to my Master and caring for him. I love baking for him,giving him a massage and a bath. Kneeling beside him. Dressing for him. Services I don’t enjoy are being quiet and still.
An article that correlates with my beliefs are ‘Structure with Rules’ and ‘Why the Word Training Confuses Novices’.
Submissive Resume
I am a work in progress. I have just recently discovered my submissive nature
and am eager to learn everything I can to please my Master. My Master has been in the lifestyle as a Dom for 10 yrs and he lived this with other women. I never really wanted to participate other than to watch. Now with my maturity and openess I am ready to give myself completely.
My personality is approachable, compassionate, and passionate. I am proud of the acheivments I have made in my life and the traveling I have been fortunate enough to have done.
Activities I enjoy and keep me sane are running, golf, reading, and traveling.
I love Italian, French and Spanish quisine along with red and dry white wines to accompany the meal. I watch scary movies, action romance and sci-fi. I love old movies and oldies, blues, and country
I have 2 grown children and 8 grandchildren. I love them all but I want to focus on my new direction. I feel like I am starting a new life and hope to have a Master that will help and guide me through it.
I am in health care and I plan to continue my education in that area. My spirituality is what brought me to being a nurse and I think it makes me drawn to the submissive lifestyle ( even though I have been fighting these feelings for many years). I am active in athletic benefits that raise money for health illnesses. I live with my husband/Master and we have a cat and a dog.
My pet peeve is clutter. I need environmental organization to maintain my focus. My goal is to learn to please my Master and my professional goal is to get my masters in health administration. One of my goals is to save money and pay off my dept in 2 yrs.
My most unusual experience or should I say my most rewarding experience is being a traveling nurse. I was able to see states I wanted to see and meet a lot of new people.
Some of talents are sewing, decorating, motivating staff, organization.
and am eager to learn everything I can to please my Master. My Master has been in the lifestyle as a Dom for 10 yrs and he lived this with other women. I never really wanted to participate other than to watch. Now with my maturity and openess I am ready to give myself completely.
My personality is approachable, compassionate, and passionate. I am proud of the acheivments I have made in my life and the traveling I have been fortunate enough to have done.
Activities I enjoy and keep me sane are running, golf, reading, and traveling.
I love Italian, French and Spanish quisine along with red and dry white wines to accompany the meal. I watch scary movies, action romance and sci-fi. I love old movies and oldies, blues, and country
I have 2 grown children and 8 grandchildren. I love them all but I want to focus on my new direction. I feel like I am starting a new life and hope to have a Master that will help and guide me through it.
I am in health care and I plan to continue my education in that area. My spirituality is what brought me to being a nurse and I think it makes me drawn to the submissive lifestyle ( even though I have been fighting these feelings for many years). I am active in athletic benefits that raise money for health illnesses. I live with my husband/Master and we have a cat and a dog.
My pet peeve is clutter. I need environmental organization to maintain my focus. My goal is to learn to please my Master and my professional goal is to get my masters in health administration. One of my goals is to save money and pay off my dept in 2 yrs.
My most unusual experience or should I say my most rewarding experience is being a traveling nurse. I was able to see states I wanted to see and meet a lot of new people.
Some of talents are sewing, decorating, motivating staff, organization.
My Ideals and Dreams of Being Submissive
My ideal relationship/Master is a man whom knows his own heart and is caring enough to guide me through my journey. Attributes of strength and trustworthiness, stern with a firm hand, intelligent and has a sense of humor to laugh at me when at times I become a giggling, bumbling idiot. My Master is large ,dark and handsome. Don’t spare the rod when I have not pleased you nor spare a compliment when I have fulfilled your needs. Set my rules for 24/7 submission if that is your wish.
I love to get outdoors and cycle,golf,run,swim and scuba dive.I want to be the best I can be in these activities so you can be proud of me. I want to get my degree in health care management so you will see my intelligence.
I want you to mangage my accounts and give me money or buy me things if it pleases you to do so. I love my family and I enjoy spending time with them, but you are my life and you will determine who I see and when.
Master if it is your wish I would like a manogomous relationship (meaning no other subs living in the house).If you wish to be with others I will accept this. If you wish me to be with other dominants I will do as you please,but know my whole being is concentrated on you.
I need rules desperately and I need you to provide them for me and discipline me when I have disobeyed. I am new to this but so excited to learn and do what you want. I grew up fighting rules and wanting someone to take charge of me. I new when I met you,
you would me my Master. I just didn’t know it would take me this long to figure that I had to give my control to you. I kept waiting for you to take it. Master please be very strict with me because I am so stubborn and defiant at times.
I want to be your toy to enjoy and bind,torture, and fuck as you please.Whenever,wherever. I want to go to parties with you and do everything you have dreamed of doing.
Sir would you have a waking, bedtime, and your coming home ritual designed by you,for me to follow. Please be specific in teaching me what pleases you.
Master,when you come into a room I will show you deference and be quiet until you say otherwise. I will not touch unless you have given permission. I will fulfill your sexual appetites and continue to learn so you can have your needs met.
My soul,my body,my heart,my will,my being is yours to control.
I love to get outdoors and cycle,golf,run,swim and scuba dive.I want to be the best I can be in these activities so you can be proud of me. I want to get my degree in health care management so you will see my intelligence.
I want you to mangage my accounts and give me money or buy me things if it pleases you to do so. I love my family and I enjoy spending time with them, but you are my life and you will determine who I see and when.
Master if it is your wish I would like a manogomous relationship (meaning no other subs living in the house).If you wish to be with others I will accept this. If you wish me to be with other dominants I will do as you please,but know my whole being is concentrated on you.
I need rules desperately and I need you to provide them for me and discipline me when I have disobeyed. I am new to this but so excited to learn and do what you want. I grew up fighting rules and wanting someone to take charge of me. I new when I met you,
you would me my Master. I just didn’t know it would take me this long to figure that I had to give my control to you. I kept waiting for you to take it. Master please be very strict with me because I am so stubborn and defiant at times.
I want to be your toy to enjoy and bind,torture, and fuck as you please.Whenever,wherever. I want to go to parties with you and do everything you have dreamed of doing.
Sir would you have a waking, bedtime, and your coming home ritual designed by you,for me to follow. Please be specific in teaching me what pleases you.
Master,when you come into a room I will show you deference and be quiet until you say otherwise. I will not touch unless you have given permission. I will fulfill your sexual appetites and continue to learn so you can have your needs met.
My soul,my body,my heart,my will,my being is yours to control.
My Defining Moment
I have always been what some might call a sexual deviant, I consider it expanding my pleasure. As a young adolescent I fantasized about sex with my father or brother. I had sexual encounters with my best friends and masturbated nightly. I had a small dog that I allowed to lick me as I masturbated and continued that practice as I grew. As a teen I acted out and was disobedient to my father, always. If he said do ,I didn’t. I wanted him to take control of me but the more he tried the harder I fought. Little did I know this was the beginning of a long journey to submission.
As I became a young woman my mother would always tell me sex was for making babies and at times she would call me a tramp if I had too much make up or dressed too sexy. I have always been feminine and enjoyed dressing sexy and appealing to a man.
I have always had an older man. I know know it was because I was looking for my Master. I have experimented with men in BDSM and enjoyed the sexual play but I would push the limits with the men I married and dated. I wanted them to control me and felt they didn’t know how. I became very frustrated and felt like I would never meet my Master.
Then I met Him. I knew in my heart he was the one that could take control of my mind,spirit and body. But how? I knew he was a Dominant and I knew he really liked sexual control and punishment. That was all I really knew. I have never had sexual fulfillment like I have had with Him. I knew he had sexual relations with other women while we are married and some I participated in and some I watched. I was ok with this because I knew what a huge sexual appetite he had and that I couldn’t fulfill all his needs. He likes a woman that can take a lot of pain and he likes variety. I knew he loved me and this activity had nothing to do with his love for me.
I gave him my heart completely but that was all. Life got in the way and we started to lead different lives for years.
I had told him many times in the past that I wanted him to take control of me. He always told me he couldn’t take it. He never explained and I never knew what he was talking about. What had I done wrong? I was losing the one I would give every thing to.
I thought, ok , this is over between us. He wants something I can’t give him. What did they have I didn’t? Why couldn’t he teach me. I had read his emails and I knew one of his subs was a novice and he was teaching her.
Then I knew I had to fight for him. I loved him and would do anything to please him and make him happy. Then, like a light switch being turned on, I realized what he had been telling me all along, “submission” is a gift that I have to”give” to him. My whole attitude changed that day. I experienced such joy and happiness that I continue to giggle and smile today. It feels so liberating ( and I always thought I was a very liberated woman). I think of him 24/7 and I get wet just thinking of ways I can please him. I am still a novice and eagerly learning everything he can teach me, and I greedily read everything I can get my hands on. I am willing to give my life over to serve and please my Master.
As I became a young woman my mother would always tell me sex was for making babies and at times she would call me a tramp if I had too much make up or dressed too sexy. I have always been feminine and enjoyed dressing sexy and appealing to a man.
I have always had an older man. I know know it was because I was looking for my Master. I have experimented with men in BDSM and enjoyed the sexual play but I would push the limits with the men I married and dated. I wanted them to control me and felt they didn’t know how. I became very frustrated and felt like I would never meet my Master.
Then I met Him. I knew in my heart he was the one that could take control of my mind,spirit and body. But how? I knew he was a Dominant and I knew he really liked sexual control and punishment. That was all I really knew. I have never had sexual fulfillment like I have had with Him. I knew he had sexual relations with other women while we are married and some I participated in and some I watched. I was ok with this because I knew what a huge sexual appetite he had and that I couldn’t fulfill all his needs. He likes a woman that can take a lot of pain and he likes variety. I knew he loved me and this activity had nothing to do with his love for me.
I gave him my heart completely but that was all. Life got in the way and we started to lead different lives for years.
I had told him many times in the past that I wanted him to take control of me. He always told me he couldn’t take it. He never explained and I never knew what he was talking about. What had I done wrong? I was losing the one I would give every thing to.
I thought, ok , this is over between us. He wants something I can’t give him. What did they have I didn’t? Why couldn’t he teach me. I had read his emails and I knew one of his subs was a novice and he was teaching her.
Then I knew I had to fight for him. I loved him and would do anything to please him and make him happy. Then, like a light switch being turned on, I realized what he had been telling me all along, “submission” is a gift that I have to”give” to him. My whole attitude changed that day. I experienced such joy and happiness that I continue to giggle and smile today. It feels so liberating ( and I always thought I was a very liberated woman). I think of him 24/7 and I get wet just thinking of ways I can please him. I am still a novice and eagerly learning everything he can teach me, and I greedily read everything I can get my hands on. I am willing to give my life over to serve and please my Master.
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The lesson for today is to answer the question "Is it easy for you to be obedient? Why or why not". First I would like to answer the question is obedience a trait or a learned behavior. I have read it defined as both. I believe that obedience is a learned behavior. If you study a dominant male you will see he learns to be the alpha male. Growing up with a stern military father, obedience was very difficult. If he said yes I said no. you know the scenario. There was always something inside of me that made me feel that to obey was to give up my freedom of choice and my independence. I stayed in hot water at home and at school. So if you were to ask my parents they would tell you obedience was not a trait for me. As I grew I learned to be obedient at certain times in my life (like at work and obeying laws). All the while maintaining my independence and freedom of choice.
Now the connection between obedience in a D/s relationship and my independence is freedom of choice . I freely gave my obedience/submission to my Master ,therefore obedience should come easily. But it doesn't. Some days it does and some not. The difference in the day is whether I have unquestionable trust in my Master vs wondering "why is he asking me to do that or why is he being so stern." So I think the key to obedience for me is to meditate and maintain the right mindset. Not always easy for me to do consistently,but I am working on it.
The lesson for today is to answer the question "Is it easy for you to be obedient? Why or why not". First I would like to answer the question is obedience a trait or a learned behavior. I have read it defined as both. I believe that obedience is a learned behavior. If you study a dominant male you will see he learns to be the alpha male. Growing up with a stern military father, obedience was very difficult. If he said yes I said no. you know the scenario. There was always something inside of me that made me feel that to obey was to give up my freedom of choice and my independence. I stayed in hot water at home and at school. So if you were to ask my parents they would tell you obedience was not a trait for me. As I grew I learned to be obedient at certain times in my life (like at work and obeying laws). All the while maintaining my independence and freedom of choice.
Now the connection between obedience in a D/s relationship and my independence is freedom of choice . I freely gave my obedience/submission to my Master ,therefore obedience should come easily. But it doesn't. Some days it does and some not. The difference in the day is whether I have unquestionable trust in my Master vs wondering "why is he asking me to do that or why is he being so stern." So I think the key to obedience for me is to meditate and maintain the right mindset. Not always easy for me to do consistently,but I am working on it.
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